So many thoughts clouding the mind, so much to do and achieve, so much to prove, so much to earn, but heck for what??? Whom do I have prove to? What I have to do? Why I need to earn so much?
We all are burdened with these questions specially people in their twenties. It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. Life cannot get more confusing than this.
You want to bring change in this world but do not know from where to start and leave the mission half way. The people whom you considered close were not really close and distance grew with people whom you were close to. You realize that selfishness has become the order of the day and believe it or not you are also one among them.
The girl/guy you loved wasn’t exactly the person you were looking for. One day you get into a relationship and other day you get confused whether your step was right or wrong. Soon you start liking someone else and then someone else and you wonder is it right to like so many people at the same time??
You lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet someone with whom you can share your dreams, your desires and your life in general. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over again, and talk with your friends about the same topics and seek different opinions because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about money, the future and making a life for yourself.
You think that you have reached a crossroad of some sort and don’t know what should be your next step. You are among the crowd but still feel lonely, scared and confused and cry like a child over a non issue. You don’t know which direction life is taking you. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
To conclude life seems pretty messed up but every problem has a solution and probably this phase of our life will teach us something and someday we will be able to find a solution to our quarter life crisis. Till then enjoy this confusion because this phase is temporary and when you become a 30 something you would imagine that being confused is better than being so sure!!!!!
P.S. The above blog is inspired from my confusion which I am facing since past few months, no wait a minute, its past few years and also from one of the email I had sometime back from my friend titled "Confusions of Life" .
